I'm bad at making decisions.

Every time I think I have life figured out, it throws something else at me. College is hard because there are so many opportunities and not enough time. I have myriad interests, but I can't pursue all of them and it's frustrating. I miss music and the thrill of performing. But I'm not good enough to do it on a collegiate level, and I don't have time to get good enough. I thought I had my major planned out, but today made me wonder. I go to a seminar put on by the Honors program every Thursday, and last week the speaker was a genetics professor. His talk about the work being done with genetic engineering and the human genome reminded me why I used to love science so much.

I'm genuinely good at science. But I also excel in social science. I think I might change my major to genetics and biotechnology. It's quite a bit different from the path I thought I would be on with my International Relations major. However, the main attraction to that major was China. I can still minor in Chinese and take Korean classes. I can even take economics and poli sci classes as electives.

As I think more and more about this, the more I feel that it's the right thing to do. I've got that peace that comes from a decision that will work out for me. The benefits are immense. I can still do Flagship, which means I can keep up with my 中文 and keep learning. I think the degree itself will help me in life and career--it's more of a solid path than the maybe-diplomacy-or-business-or-something track I was on before. So I guess I just need to get me down to the advisement center and change it on up.

I just hope I won't flip-flop again. I'll probably give it another week or two till I decide for sure--after midterms, but before registration--and keep praying about it.

Ciao! Ti amo!

--Miranda